Thanks Craig! Simply, I have been lifted to a place I wasn't even uptone enough before, to get within my vision. The bridge has been really simple in it's gifts. One just becomes more uptone, more tolerant with understanding of people unfolding, more deliberate. Your power comes back to you. It's like getting your power restored. It's living through a day caring about other people without being interupted by walls I used to put up because things confused me before. I used to think the ot's I knew were somewhat distant. In fact, they just understood all too well what I was going through and tolerated me. It's just a groovey smooth lift, going up the bridge. And it's really easy to get there now. To Be

CraigR <Craigrobart@sbcglobal.net> wrote:

Wow,  I really feel that win really coming from you. you expressed that so well. Thank you. I really got it. And can't wait to really get it for myself fully someday.

 

Craig

----- Original Message -----

From: to be

To: fzaoelma@yahoogroups.com

Sent: Friday, January 09, 2004 12:07 AM

Subject: [fzaoelma] This is my message to you..clear and below

O.K., I came into Scientology in worse condition than you, believe me there but this is not the time. It took me hundreds of hours to go Clear and I did it by accident on a drug rundown. Believe me, my havingness was not high enough to have "clear" as a target. I only hoped to not go insane in my life.

 

I knew of clears and ots and tried to skim information from them as to their world..the real info. The real deal. I could not get it. It was uncomforting. So I am here to tell all on this list...to yell down the hill now that I am clear and working on the OT levels.  I am going to to tell you the real deal for me.

 

I had hoped through what I had read and my ideas that I would never experience pain or even my heart after clear. I had hoped that clear would build a wall between me and feelings. Me and love. Me and a lot of things. I had hoped that Scientology would evelvate me to a position of never effect and never grow up and whimsical joy uninterupted.

 

Well, here's the real from ME I say.

 

Going clear and OT so far...I love my kids more than ever. I love puppy dogs and frogs. I love apple pie and America. more than ever. I even love my mother. It's not what I hoped for at all. I am not a robot with pure analictical thought like spok. I am not. It's not been at all what I thought.

 

I am in love, even more than before. I can see the genuine validity, of all we have done. There is nothing here I care to invalidate. More than ever, I am spellbound by grimm fairytails, pianos, puppydogs and weeping willows.

 

More than ever I am glad.

 

And that is what getting there has been for me honestly. And there hasn't been anything else more important. And I just wanted to share that. Love, To Be Me