From: Ralph Hilton [ralph@cmeter.org]
Sent: Saturday, February 14, 2004 15:43
To: OT_List@yahoogroups.com
Subject: Re: [OT_List] BOTCHED OT AUDITING
On Sat, 14 Feb 2004 00:36:51 +0000 you wrote:

>Dear Ralph, please consult the Chart of Human Evaluation to see where your
>current communication fits, thought I believe my communication to be possibly futile
>in attempting to correct auditing errors you have done.

Hi Pierre,

My last private reply to you, which I posted to the other list, was viewed by
you as a tirade. I would ask you to read over it again and examine each
outpoint that I stated for any validity.

I attempted to express to you in our early communication the chasm that exists
between Flag auditing and the FZ.

What you actually see in FZAOINT is a group of people who want to improve
matters. Many will have gone through periods of doubt about the subject
itself.

Almost all your communication to me has been from an attitude that comes
across as "holier than thou". You seemed to be going to great efforts to point
out what a superior being you were to us poor grovelling minions.

The word "unctuous" seemed appropriate in describing that attitude.

Quite recently you wanted a meter as you said you didn't have one, wanted to
audit, and couldn't afford one. You received a meter shortly afterwards at my
expense. I also spent a fair amount of time providing you with materials
without even asking for postage.

Yet in your recent announcement you said:
"I am a highly successful professional, have achieved an acceptable level of
prosperity and have a great family life."

I informed you that the main areas I wanted to improve related to L's and Solo
Nots. You agreed.

I was not, and am still not willing to accept you as a senior terminal as I do
not see change in attitude.

Your actions yesterday seemed accurately described by the word "perfidious".

I consider my evaluation of your conduct against the Chart of Human Evaluation
to have been accurate.

I had tried to inform you gradiently concerning the history of the FZ and my
own track.

In the 80s there were write-ups of the Ls being circulated that, even with the
limited view of the materials I had at Flag, were extremely incorrect. In the
early 90s I got hold of a write up which was apparently by Russ Meadows, a
Class 12. It contained the lists and very scant theory.

What you see in those sessions of 10 years ago +/- a few months is not even
what you would view as the worst.

It seems worth going over the history of the FZ since its formation. If you
choose to view it as a minimization of overts, or a justification of some sort
as you have done in other communications then you might as well stop reading
now and go your way with your sanctity unpolluted.

If you wish to carry on preaching about how we lowly beings could never hope
to even attempt to reach your elevated awareness then you will be unaccepted
in the way that Roland has covered.

My first contact with the pre-Freezone was a mailing from a group in East
Grinstead near the end of 83. They had obtained a mailing list from St. Hill.
I went to E.G. and met Jon Atack. I had left Flag in 1972 with no NOTS data.
He had received NOTs auditing and gave me details of the basics. From that I
started Solo Nots. I had previously run almost every correction list available
solo in attempting to handle the charge of hundreds of out lists and almost
everything reading on a C/S 53. I later came across the materials and
progressed through the steps solo. I had them checked over later by 2 other
auditors.

I soon became aware that NOTs was incomplete. I, along with many others, was
hitting phenomena not covered in the material. There were a few of us digging
around in all sorts of areas to try and figure it out. The "Independent field"
started growing in 1984. I started a small group in South London. Things
rapidly fell apart when an LRH trained Class 8 entered the scene asserting his
superiority. He grandly announced what a wonderful auditor he was and
proceeded to fuck up every PC that he got. He butchered my then girlfriend's
case with what he described as an OT power rundown.  She had barely started
NOTs but was thrown into an early track OT valence and left there. Given that
the valence was quite strong, it had no NOTs case (so it seemed). She asserted
completion, split up with me and departed Scientology shortly afterwards.  He
decided that OT2 was just LRH's case and starting selling his 8 page write up
of the OT levels. The group fell apart completely in late 84. I started
developing various approaches to upper levels. In 1985 I was studying Neuro
Linguistic Programming extensive. I thought that others may have developed
useful approaches that could be incorporated. I found that it could produce
very rapid changes in lower level cases especially but then realized that all
that was occurring was a valence shift.

As an aside it may not be well known that in the early 80s LRH ordered an
infiltration of EST in a highly confidential operation known as OP Z. Someone
left a copy of the Eval lying around. I was a security guard on night watch at
the time so had plenty of time to read it before giving it to the div 6 aide.
(There was much insecurity at Flag. I even found a Class 10 pack once in an
auditing room.)  LRH ordered the infiltration to discover any tech that EST
had that might be of use. The "Personal Efficiency Training" centre in Tampa
was based on the stolen EST tech.

Later I recalled the operation and in 1987 went in to find out for myself.  I
did all but the most advanced course ($12,000 was outside my budget).  It was
a mixture of Scientology, Martin Heidegger and some eastern practices. There
of nothing of real use. The resignup rate was about 10%.

The courses were extremely squirrelly and restimulative so I was some months
after just doing correction lists.

Then I got into Bill Robertson "OT levels" in 1988/89.  I found them
incomplete and rather dangerous. I was quite ill on some of the levels and
that took a while to fix up. After that I ran R2-12 for a while then quite a
long haul on the Helatrobus implants followed by quite a long run on 3GA which
seemed to run more smoothly than later developments.

In 1993 I spent some months in South Carolina. I had hoped to establish an
operating base their but soon found the man who had invited me there to be
untrustworthy. I returned to the UK in late 1993. I did get a copy of the OT8
write up that has been circulated around and an Ls write up. Having no
trustable auditor I ran the Ls solo to the extent that such is possible. The
PC data you have seen is from someone run at that time.

My next experiments were based on the possibility that the E-meter was not
actually capable of reading deeply enough to get unresponsive charge. I built
a series of ultra sensitive meters that would directly read the brain
patterns. I used them for solo and did some experimentation with a couple of
others.  I found they did read deeper and hit layers of otherwise unavailable
charge but read too deep below the PCs awareness. The areas I hit myself only
seemed to respond at the time to the material I wrote up concerning monitors.

In 1997 I moved to Austria with the intent of setting up delivery in Scn here.
I was at that time moving toward just using Scientology but still experimented
with Pilot's materials and Bill Robertson OT16 + tech.

In 1999 Pilot had established himself as an opinion leader. When he caved in
the FZ seemed to go into apathy. It also had a consequence that I became
concerned at the growing FZ casualty list from people delving into OT8+
material without adequate preparation.

The details of my subsequent Revenius post are still available on
http://www.fzint.net/revenius/index.htm

They seemed to produce a revival of interest and FZAOINT was born with the
expressed intent of several people to deliver standard tech in the FZ. Flag
auditing had its outnesses and had also produced its casualties. Thus the
effort has been to use LRH tech in a standard way but without the unwanted
entrapments that many of us had experienced in the CofS.

We have all committed our overts along the way. One of the tasks before us is
to be able to address them without the horrendous inval, eval and must/can't
be/do/have of the CofS environment.

So, Pierre, there is a chasm. In the middle of that chasm is a workable
standard tech. I am approaching it from one side and you the other.

If this recent situation of mutual abuse can be resolved then that would be
preferable.

However you asked me for agreement not to engage in attacks on a public forum.
Having obtained that agreement you proceeded to do just that.

You wrote up a doubt condition and instead of just posting the decision you
used it to attack.

You have also just betrayed the trust of the person who sent you his folders
with a promise from you of free auditing. I daresay he will be contacting you
shortly about that.

Applying ethics conditions should not in any way involve the humiliations and
degradations of the way the Sea Org operates. No grey rags, no cleaning
toilets for a week etc.

So please be assured that should you choose to apply the conditions and rejoin
the group it can be done without recriminations and other HE&R.

Best wishes,
Ralph



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