From: owner-ivy-subscribers-2@worldtrans.org on
behalf of Malcolm Bugler [malcolmb@rochester.rr.com]
Sent: Friday,
April 25, 2003 11:13
To: Ivylist
Subject: ivy-subscribers-2
IVySubs: Fw: My arrival
Hello all!
In light of some recent requests to have some more
general wins on this list, I thought some of you may be interested in the post I
made to another (knowledgism) list today.
Love,
Malcolm
----- Original Message -----
Sent: Friday, April 25, 2003 4:56 AM
Subject: My arrival
Hi everyone!
I am so, so, so, so happy! I am happier than I have
been for many years. This technology has given me so much back compared to the
relatively small amount of time and effort I have put into learning to apply it
honestly.
I now feel it is the right time to fully open up
and tell my 'story' to encourage others to be brave and put their faith in
themselves that they can become whatever they want and fulfill their
dreams.
I want to start by revealing how I got to be
'here'.
Previously my happiness mostly flowed from helping
others using my skills in the design of 'things' This was rewarding, but I
always felt the best when I was personally acknowledged as a spiritual being by
a spiritual being, usually for the good performance of a 'thing' I had been
directly involved in creating or helping to create.
Before coming into contact with this technology,
although I was keen to meet and relate to others, it was usually 'tainted' by my
own desire to get what I wanted, or to influence others to do what I wanted them
to do. This has resulted in a lot of stress and pain for me as it was not born
out of truth and honesty, so was destined to have a Yellow Zone (mediocre)
outcome at best. I also used these 'failures' to excuse my own poor use of
a set of very limited inter-relationship skills.
Since returning from the last VF (vital
fundementals of processing)course at the Ranch in March, I have changed. I
have changed not because I studied in the class so hard, not because I am doing
a fixed evening of study or drills or doing lots of reading of material, or
formal sessions or any formalized thing at all.
I have changed because I am
using the technology in everyday life.
I have stopped making it a reason that I am not at
so and so level or have passed so and so checkout, (although this is a good
measurement of progress).
This change happened when I simply
decided to sincerely help others. Regardless of self.
Regardless of consequences.
Using the material and
technology has made the difference. And at every opportunity.
Making mistakes with it, screwing up, falling flat
on my face, failing, doing it again, being embarrassed, hoping a little, having
a success or two, starting to become brave, finding the right question,
asking it, getting an answer...... Seeing the result, getting braver,
having confidence, letting the emotion of another flow without
reaction, pressing for the 'hidden item', and getting it, feeling another's
relief. Starting to have 'fun' with people, mood
coming up to spirit of play, joyous, dynamic. Actual arrival.
Yes, that is it - Actual
arrival.
I am able to just be
present and use this technology!
I want to thank everyone who has helped
me come to the above huge realization.
To Radka for your friendship and undying
belief in me.
To Eric and Maureen for your faith,
integrity and caring.
To Joel for your gently but firm encouragement and
coaching.
To Ceil for your almost brutal self-honesty and
amazing inspiration.
To Paul for your caring and
compassion, outstanding course supervision and processing.
To Roger for your lucid and eloquent advice. It is
priceless, my friend.
To everyone I have met and worked on the VF courses
with at the ranch.
And finally to Alan. Although I do not know you
very well personally, I think you are the truest friend I have. Your
compassion and caring for others is the highest I have ever experienced in any
other being. I have run out of words to express myself. I will include some more
fitting words about you from another list I subscribe to written by another
being I have great respect for.
'As far as
I am concerned Alan can write all he wants and I personally know that he may
write different words but he will never stray from the true concepts of what
will set men free and set beings free as well.' - Ray
Krenik
Thank you all.
Love,
Malcolm
Malcolm Bugler
Personal Coach